Your Questions About Freelancer 2

Why do I feel so lonely and sad? I don't know why!?

I used to be so willful and determind to prove myself but now...
I have a few "close friends" for 2 years now, I don't trust them, and although I have fun with them sometimes, I think they share no common interests with me, and they are slow and have too many stupid superstitions (about devil people and how if someone draws devil they are evil ECT) so shortly they are just common and narrow minded. I lie to them ALOT!! I never tend to stick with friends this long, and though about leaving them but I just CBA...
One day I felt so angry for no reason, I just punched the wall, and now my fists are bloodied and bruised... OUCH
Other then that, I just hate socializing, and people bore me easily, I never show the real me or tell people how I feel(always cover it up in this violent random facade, many people say I'm mean and violent...) I love my family, though I seem to not show it. I drift ALOT( mentally no actually drift like a cloud)! I don't have a goals in life. People say I have so much potential, but I have no determination and I rebel against authority all the time!. I used to believe that one day I would meet this guy and he would teach me how to fight, and become strong and eventually teach me to love and have passion and we could travel the world together(weird dream huh?!). I also used to believe that I was going to grow up to be a mermaid (and at the only moment my only real love is the water- Rain and Ocean/sea).
My only dream ATM is to live far away from here and travel and depend and work/fend for myself (freelancer).
But I feel like I have wasted my life even though I'm only 15
But I feel like this isn't really my real life, Like in a moment something is going to happen to change me... if that makes sense?
I wonder sometime if my name has anything to do with it: it means Longing or yearning for somthing

How can i handle two programming languages?

Hello, I learned visual basics long time ago.Currently, i bought a book to learn OOP in c++, i just began last week to learn c++ , however i would like to learn PHP or FLASH to design web sites because i will be able to become "freelancer" and help an organization. What would you advice me to do? try to learn c++ and PHP?? in other words i want to learn a programming languages about "software development" and "web design" so i guess learn OOP in c++ and probably PHP or FLASH to web design.How about time? well, i have 2 hours everyday that i can spend learning programming languages.

thanks guys i will appreciate your help because this topic make me nuts.

i will thank as much feedabck as possible.

I really think I hate my family?

Let me introduce you to them.
My dad: The guys is a fucking bum (sorry if I curse I'm just really upset at the moment). He thinks of me as a disappointment since I don't like Football as much as he does, so he thinks of me as less of a man (for instance he told me the other day "look at that guy, now that's a REAL man, you can learn a thing or 2 from him"). Also he just doesn't give a shit about anything, he smokes in the house, I'm suppose to suffer from second hand smoking because the guy just doesn't care that some people were stronger then him and could resist crappy peer pressure (not accusing any smokers of being week or whatnot, I just can't stand the ones that are selfless and don't give a damn about someone other then themselves). All he does when he gets home is lay on the couch in front of the TV and could care less if someone else wanted to watch something he recorded. The guy is just a lazy bum and instead of dealing with his shit he pretty much takes it off on everyone around him (did I mention that he screams like an animal every time anyone tries to talk to him, about anything...).
Now my mom: My mom always has to take a ride on your conscience and could care less about what you ever want to do, since she is the one that determines everything. Everything must go her way and if not she immediately rides on your self esteem, confidence and mostly your conscience. She says she always sacrifices and no one ever does anything for her, while the truth is we always sacrifice and none of us gets anything done for our benefit for "her sake".
My middle sister (older then me): Is just an image of my dad. The only difference is that always makes fun of me and disses me to the point I just want to punch her, and the moment I just say something to her she immediately calls my mom and I'm the guy to blame (even though I didn't have a chance to say anything). She always whines about everything instead of taking some responsibility to handle things herself. Everyone else ends up doing the job for her.
My oldest sister: A spitting image of my mother. But like my sister always have to make fun of me, and in the end I will always be the guy punished. At least her she doesn't live in the house (unlike my middle sister which is in college, yet every weekend comes, does nothing but watch TV then on Sunday cries about her not able to do any of the work she had).
Now the family on my mom's side: They're all bums, kind of like my dad. Though, these people always get drunk and start bashing everyone in the country (and me of course). I avoid them as much as I can, but the times I have to go there (it's a big family by the way, yet somehow almost all of them manage to meet in someones house, and the funny thing is they all hate each other, it's pretty fucked up) I just think about getting home already and just listen to my iPod.
My dad's family: I like my grandma even though she can get on your nerves sometimes. One of my uncle is always lecturing me, study as hard as you can, play sports (I usually just go out for runs, or the local swimming pool to work out, yet this is not enough for them), etc. etc. It's really a pain and being constantly judged I sometimes just think about hitting him in his fat face (oh yeah, he's like 265 lbs yet telling me to play sports). My aunt I don't really mind, since we barely talk (just "Hi" or "How are you doing", nothing else).
Now this is the only guy in my family I like, my uncle (my dad's younger sibling). He's great, never judges me, he's not old (in his 30's) so he knows people my age. He's also not a damn bum, he's a respective businessman (freelancer) and vibrant. The only thing that sucks is that he lives a little far from here (not another state, but an hour and a half drive) so I only see him once for a few hours every two weeks or so (if he's working hard then it can take even a month). So that kind of sucks.

You should also know that every single one in my family (except my aforementioned uncle and aunt) is a huge hypocrite. I'm not just saying that, or exaggerating it's true.
I would gladly rant about all my cousins, but that would take forever.

I do hate my family, I don't even hesitate to say this. I'm 17 and almost fucking 18 yet they treat me like a damn child that needs to be educated, I just can't stand this. They're so much on my self esteem that I barely talk anymore, I only feel comfortable around my closest friends (not even all of them just like, 3 or 4) and can't even stand to see any of them (family not friends).

I'm sorry for the huge wall of text, but I just had to get this out of my system. I'm not looking for advice on how to make peace with my family (since we don't talk about those things in my family), I'm just looking to get it all out of my syst

Tax Expert Needed! Please answer my question.?

I am a Freelancer currently making $30,000. I am not American. In a few years, I plan to move to the United States, and hopefully increase my pay. I also want to use my money to fund an up-and-coming 501(c)3 non-profit ministry. From what I understand, freelancing taxes can be somewhat high in the US, but $30,000-$50,000 isn't that much money. Are there any tax provisions for:

1) People who donate the majority of their income to a non-profit
2) Work to fund such an organization, or
3) Spend almost all of their income on essential day-to-day expenses such as food and shelter?

Thanks.

Having problems to handle a conversation?

Hello,

English isn't my primary language, but I've been talking a lot in English over the last 5 years (I'm just 16 y/o btw).
I learned by surfing the web, becoming a freelancer web developer, and watching a lot of movies and series with no subtitles.
About 5 years ago I didn't even have the ability to read/write in English, so I understand that it's a continuous process, and my current progress is pretty good for the time.
When chating, or emailing (which are the 2 things that I do the most I'm doing well. I'm also a users in forums, buying stuff over american websites.
Even when it comes to phone conversation, I'm manage to handle that - but it seems like I'm getting pressed, starting to forget words - but the main problem is understanding what the other one said.
I'm not sure if the reason is that I have difficulties in understanding the American accent, or maybe just being under pressure - when I think to myself "what will you do if you don't understand something?", etc.
I find myself say a lot of things like "I don't understand" and "can you say it again", or sometimes even "i don't hear properly".

What can I do in order to get better in that?

Thanks in advance and waiting for your understanding reply
Yuval.